Just another random thoughts:
I’ m wide awake as early as 4am, first reason, my baby asked for milk and here i am now trying to close my eyes again hoping i can go back to sleep but seems like it’s impossible to happen.
Lying here in our room (with light,yah! Coz my children and i afraid in the dark). Staring at the ceiling, and lots of things pop up in my mind. I don’t know where to start. All i know is that i miss my husband, i miss my family in leyte, i miss my friends, i miss everybody. I feel so alone and sad and sick. Migraine, backpain, sinusitis, sometimes fever, and bruises in my body again. Seems like they love to stay with me, as if i love them. Been suffering with all of these for how many years now, and sometimes i got used with all the pain and the hassle they give in my life..
I super miss my husband, but can’t do anything with it. Our future is in his hands. Sacrifices are needed just to give good future to our children. If only i have stable business here that i can buy the time of my husband to stay longer with us here without worrying our monthly ammortization in the bank. Hopefully soon. In Gods time.
I miss my family in leyte, i really want to go home, but our schedule wont allow us to do so. I hope we’ll spend our christmas there, and i hope the weather there is good by that time, coz’ i’m afraid with floods..
I miss my friends, my old and new friends, i mean all of them. You know that feeling when you need someone to talk or text but no one is there for you? That you’re so alone and lonely and you feel like nobody cares. And that you wonder, where are they, why they don’t even text you or msg you on fb just to say how are you, or i ms u.etc.. Just like what i always do.
Do not do unto others, what you don’t like others do unto you. Same like, do unto others, what you like others do unto you. But seems like all the efforts is in me, but others can’t notice what i did.
What if one day im gone, so excited what people will say about me, 🙂 if only i can hear all the things they will miss about me.. #justsaying
Can you guys say what you’ll gonna miss when i’m gone?! At least now i’m still gonna hear you..:-)
Till my next nonsense post..:-) Mother mode now, it’s monday. Preparing my princess to school..
God Bless everyone!!!
Xoxo,
JL
MISHA ADARA 